Pookiebear

Well Sunday will mark 2 weeks on this program. I’ve really slacked this week with 2 days of rest so I feel I really gotta get on it today. I really wanna see a loss. But if I don’t then I know why. I’m not so focused on the number that I will let it affect whether I quit or not. Which at this point nothing could make me quit. I wanna see where I can take this. How far I can go and the beautiful person waiting for me at the end. I’m on my way to that beautiful person already. I got a glimpse of her yesterday at the clothing store and boy howdy I wanna know her!

Ok so heres how it went. I haven’t bought myself a pair of jeans in months. I just hate going shopping because with all the extra weight it just upsets me when I can’t fit into something cute. Well it turned out to be really fun because I was trying on sizes that I haven’t fit into for years. I found a pair of 18’s and they were too big, so down to 16’s, also too big. So on a wing and a prayer I got 14’s. They were a little tight, but not massively or uncomfortably too tight. They fit like jeans are supposed to. I was nearly dancing! I wanted to buy a pair that were a bit on the small side so I could have some motivation so I picked up a pair of 12’s and guess what? I could get them on and zip them up with only a minimal amount of struggle. I could actually get them on! I haven’t been able to even get a 12 past my thighs since I was 12! I almost cried. I was stuck starring at myself in the dressing room mirror absolutely mesmerized. So after getting 5 pairs of jeans(that’s right 5) I decided to look at some new shirts. I went straight for the XL section cuz that’s where I normally shop. Well they were all way too big so I went to large and some of them were still to big. So I ended up with 5 new medium size shirts to go along with my new skinny me jeans. I could still stand to lose a little of the pudge that shows on my tummy but they fit! And boy do I look great! I don’t mean to brag but I really just feel so much better looking at myself in the mirror knowing that other people don’t mind looking at me either lol. It was exactly the boost I needed. After the 3 lb gain I saw on the scale last week I was kinda feeling down and was wishing to see results. This was what I was looking for. Of course I know that all this didn’t happen just because I worked out for 2 weeks. That would be silly. But I know that working out for 2 weeks really helped towards it. Now I have my motivation back 110%! I’m ready to get moving and see what that beautiful person looks like. My husband was amazed that I was wearing clothes that fit me rather than big sloppy clothes that hid my body. He likes the person I see in the mirror now. More confidence, and more happiness. He wants to see the new me just as bad as I do because he knows that the skinnier and healthier I get the happier I will be. I can’t wait to see the scale on Sunday, and I can’t wait to see what’s in store for me nextweek with my workouts. I’m on the right track and gosh darnit I’m staying there cuz this is fun!

It feels so good to be proud of myself. I’m actually taking this weight loss thing seriously for once. I’ve been on the fitness program now for almost 2 weeks and haven’t given up. Even with a 3 lb gain last week! I’m not sure how that happened since I watched my calories and did my workouts faithfully but oh well. Water under the bridge. This week I stepped up the intensity. I now have a workout scheduled everyday instead of every other day. My goal is to burn at least 800 -1000 calories a day. That means alot more time working out. It’s alright though cuz I’m a stay at home mom during the week and I’m home pretty much all day with a treadmill, bowflex, and lots of fitness related games for the Wii. What better way to pass the time? Of course I’m still adjusting to my calorie intake. To most people it would be easy. I mean the average person consumes more than 2500 calories a day right? Not me. My goal intake is 1650 calories. Sounds like a small amount, but I struggle to get to it everyday. It just seems like I am eating all the time. I know you are supposed to eat low calorie foods that are low in fat too, but even eating that stuff all day only gets me somewhat close. I guess I didn’t really eat so good before I started, but my eating now has changed and I’m not reaching my goals. Anyone got any ideas? I found this thing that is sorta like the Biggest Loser Body Bugg and I really want to get it so I can better track everything. Right now I keep a food journal and it’s helping me a little I guess. I need something that will track my calories burned alot better. On my Biggest Loser fitness game it only tracks the calories if you do the excercise exactly right. So for all that work I did last week it said I only burned 79 calories. I bet I worked out 8 hours or more. Tell me how I only burned 79 calories? I mean I was sweating like a pig, and outta breath and my heart was pumping. I’m sure even if I wasn’t doing every excercise right that I was still burning calories that weren’t counted. It’s aggravating. I have to see my progress to really believe in it. So getting something that shows me my calories burned as I’m working out would be super.

  So I watch the Biggest Loser faithfully every week and last night was a good show. Of course I think I am now more focused on the commercial breaks. Jillian Micheals says that jumping jacks burn about 30 calories every 3 minutes. So I took her advice and throughout the show I did jumping jacks or some other form of cardio thru every break. There are 10 breaks in the 2 hour show so I burned approximately 300 calories. I figure closer to 270 because I skipped a break to use the bathroom. But man am I proud of myself! I really got off my butt and did something! Not only that I jogged on the treadmill and burned a couple hundred calories, but I worked out on the bowflex(1st time in a couple yrs since I’ve had it) so that’s like 50 calories, and then i did my BL workout so that was like 50-100 calories. So I burned around 600 calories for the day. If I keep that up all week I will lose a pound. I’m hoping to up the burn so that I can lose a couple pounds. I’m feeling better about myself because I’m doing it. I’m focused and I’m gonna reach my goal as long as I keep this up!

Okay so I know that to lose 1 pound of fat you have to burn 3500 calories right? So that equals 500 calories a day that you have to burn. Here’s where I get confused. My daily calorie goal is 1650. So does that mean I have to burn 2150 calories or does it mean that I should eat 1650 calories and then burn 500 calories in my workouts? I’m so so so confused. I really want to see a loss on Sunday so I want to figure this out so I won’t be disappointed. Can anyone clear this up for me?

Well today was the beginning of the end. The end of the overweight, unhappy, and unhealthy me! I got the Biggest Loser game for Xmas and I started my fitness program today. I also got a journal so I could keep a food log. They say that people that keep a food journal lose more weight so I’m gonna give it a try. I have an official weightloss buddy who will hold me accountable and encourage me. She is my best friend and that makes it so much easier!! She’s going to come to my house 3 days a week and workout with me and we’re both keeping a journal that we will share with eachother every night. My goal is to lose 40 lbs overall. SInce I’ve started a 4 week program my short-term goal is 14 lbs. That’s only 3.5 lbs a week which should be easily attainable. I think I will make myself a meal plan for the week. That way I don’t have to overthink what I’m eating. It will all be portioned out and the calories counted so eating will be automated like the trainers say it should be. And I’ve decided that I won’t stress if I mess up. I won’t let myself get caught in a downward spiral because I dont eat right all the time.

 I hope this isnt just a fluke this time. I want to keep my motivation. I want to look good for my husband again. I want to feel good about myself again. I want to be thin and healthy and happy. I know that being happy shouldn’t only rely on the outside, but I know if the outside looks better the inside will fell happier. I will be more active and energetic. It feels good knowing I’m on the right path. And even better knowing I have someone to support my efforts and goals.

 Here’s to a new year and a new me!!!!!!!!! Good Luck to everyone’s journey this year! Hope it trumps last year and you find light at the end of the tunnel!!!

So I just got back from vacation. My friend I stayed with is very health concious so it was kinda helpful. She is thin and pretty and has such motivation that it rubbed off on me and gave me motivation to come home and do something. I have tried so many diets and workouts that have failed miserably and now I’m ready to try this on my own. Since I only work on the weekend I definately have time to excercise. 30 minutes a day is nothing. I want to try to do pilates at least 3 times a week. I know it doesn’t sound like much but considering I walk 20 miles or more at work each week I think it will make a difference. I am a carhop at a fast food joint and I walk alot. Even on my slow days I log anywhere between 7 to 11 miles. I’ve wore a pedometer for the last month and I average 20.4 miles during my workdays. I was amazed to find that out. So on top of excercising I will watch what I eat and how much I eat. I plan on keeping a food journal to make it a little easier. I’ve set my goals to 2 lbs per week. I want to start with easy goals so I don’t get discouraged so easily. One day at a time and I can beat my weight issues.

So I made plans for a short vacation with an old friend this week. I have about 20 days before my trip. I decided the day I planned it that I wanted to be down at least 10 lbs before I went. As of now I’m down 2lbs. I’ve been having some really busy days at work so I’m nearly running all day. For those of you that have ever been to Sonic, carhops are really busy people. On top of that we finally got the pool set up and I’ve been in it everyday for a week. Instead of just swimming and having fun with my 4 yr old I spend about 30 minutes doing water areobics. It’s alot easier than taking a walk in the 100 degree heat. I’m hoping I can lose the other 8 lbs beforehand. I’ve planned a shopping trip while I’m away and I really really really want to be able to buy my new outfit a size smaller. If I keep up with the swimming and doing Pilates I should be down a size. It happened pretty quickly the last time so maybe I’ll get the same results. I just need to work on the eating better. I am searching for some new recipes for more healthy meals. I wanting to start planning my meals for the whole weeks so I don’t have to worry about screwing up. If anyone has any good ideas please pass them onto me. I need all the help I can get. Thanks so much for all the support!

Ok folks we are 8 days into May. Here I sit with yet another failed attempt at losing weight.  I don’t take enough time out for myself. So many emotional things have been happening that I get lost in all the choas and just give up whatever it is I’m doing for myself. I keep saying that I want to do this, but then a few days later I’m not doing anything to change myself. I say I want to do something and then just stand still thinking it will just happen. Well guess what? It doesn’t just happen. I have to get off my dead butt and do something. UGH. I wish there was some magic that would give me motivation and determination to just stick with it. Ok enough with the self loathing whiney non motivated me. I’m putting up some pictures and motivational quotes that I will see everyday. Maybe if I give myself constant reminders then it will help me with my goal

Last night was just maybe my aha moment folks! I was eating dinner out with my lil brother and his gf at Wendy’s. They both ordered full meals, ya know big greasy burgers and fries and  with the pop I so desperately covet. (I started the 1st of this month not drinking pop) But anyways. I ordered a salad and a bottle of water. The salad had breaded chicken on it(I know horrible right?!?!?) and I sat down and started taking all the breading off. The chicken just tastes better when it’s breaded. I did it without really thinking. My lil brother’s gf was like “wow you are like the coolest person I know!You can go to a fast food place with all this good greasy food and you can order a salad and water! And even better you take all the breading off your chicken!” What a weird way to compliment me, but it felt so good for someone to be onboard with me. To realize how hard I am trying. It really made me feel good. What makes me feel even better is that since the 1st I am down just under 6 lbs!!!!

I’m so very proud of myself! This weekend was full of temptation for me. I bought cookie dough to make hubby some cookies and I didn’t even have a bite of the dough! I also made banana cream pie and though it smelled like heaven in a pie plate I resisted and didn’t even take a taste. I did have a banana while makin it, but better to have fruit than some really sweet, mouthwatering, delicious…..but I digress. It was a very tempting weekend full of sweet stuff and really good food, but I stayed strong. It just shows me I can do it if I try!

Ok so it’s day 2 on this weight loss thing. I didn’t do so good today. It was a rough day for me because I’ve had to deal with some emotional things I thought I’d hid away far back in my mind. Suddenly I found those emotions eating at me. So I took them on. I’ve cried alot today, which in turn means I ate alot of things I shouldn’t have. Dealing with all that emotional stuff is no fun and I went straight to my comfort. food. Anyways, I’m sure I’ll be dealing with these emotional issues for the next couple days so I’m gonna try really hard not to comfort myself with food. Instead I’m gonna walk a few extra minutes on the treadmill. I can’t let silly little things get in my way.