Pookiebear

Last night was just maybe my aha moment folks! I was eating dinner out with my lil brother and his gf at Wendy’s. They both ordered full meals, ya know big greasy burgers and fries and  with the pop I so desperately covet. (I started the 1st of this month not drinking pop) But anyways. I ordered a salad and a bottle of water. The salad had breaded chicken on it(I know horrible right?!?!?) and I sat down and started taking all the breading off. The chicken just tastes better when it’s breaded. I did it without really thinking. My lil brother’s gf was like “wow you are like the coolest person I know!You can go to a fast food place with all this good greasy food and you can order a salad and water! And even better you take all the breading off your chicken!” What a weird way to compliment me, but it felt so good for someone to be onboard with me. To realize how hard I am trying. It really made me feel good. What makes me feel even better is that since the 1st I am down just under 6 lbs!!!!

I’m so very proud of myself! This weekend was full of temptation for me. I bought cookie dough to make hubby some cookies and I didn’t even have a bite of the dough! I also made banana cream pie and though it smelled like heaven in a pie plate I resisted and didn’t even take a taste. I did have a banana while makin it, but better to have fruit than some really sweet, mouthwatering, delicious…..but I digress. It was a very tempting weekend full of sweet stuff and really good food, but I stayed strong. It just shows me I can do it if I try!

Ok so it’s day 2 on this weight loss thing. I didn’t do so good today. It was a rough day for me because I’ve had to deal with some emotional things I thought I’d hid away far back in my mind. Suddenly I found those emotions eating at me. So I took them on. I’ve cried alot today, which in turn means I ate alot of things I shouldn’t have. Dealing with all that emotional stuff is no fun and I went straight to my comfort. food. Anyways, I’m sure I’ll be dealing with these emotional issues for the next couple days so I’m gonna try really hard not to comfort myself with food. Instead I’m gonna walk a few extra minutes on the treadmill. I can’t let silly little things get in my way.