Pookiebear

So I haven’t logged on here in like idk almost 3 months…..sorry buddies :(  It’s almost Christmas and here I am at the same place I was last year. I love holidays but inside my head I wish I could just skip them.  It’s not that I don’t thrive on the time with my family, it’s just that holidays mean pictures and pictures just remind me of my constant failure. I jump on the wagon because I think I have finally found the magic of motivation only to fall off the wagon a few days later when the yummy food and delicious sweets start calling my name and the motivation takes a hike laughing and waving as it goes.  I am in this alone it seems. I just don’t have an accountability partner that can be with me everyday. I don’t hold myself accountable either. It’s my own fault that I am this overweight…I know the right things to do and the good foods to eat but my uncontrolled self just ignores it. Oh well. At least I have made a step in the right direction by realizing I’m my own worst enemy. I will try to do better. I’ve decided to hold myself to 2 days of excercise a week. then when that becomes a habit I will try 3 days and so on. Hopefully(clinging tight to it) I will be down 10 by February. Then a new goal. Here’s to reaching our goals and living a healthy lifestyle!!!!!

So here I am still at 202. No matter what happens the number stays the same. Though I am not worried. I made the new commitment that I will lose at least 20 lbs by March. A new commitment to eating healthy and excercising everyday. 

 I thought having a job would make my life a little less stressful but then something strange happened. I got 2 jobs. It is wearing me thin and makin me more stressed than I’ve been in a long time. So I decided that one job was enough and gave my 2 weeks to the nanny job. I’m going to be takin on more hours at the resteraunt because I can make better money and be closer to home. Anyways that is where I’m at at this point. today is the beginning of a new me.

Well I looked back at my measurements from way back in December of 2007 and guess what. I’ve gained in obvious places but was suprised to find I had also lost inches. I’ve started looking at weightloss in a different perspective because I’ve really noticed in the last few months how much it’s affecting me physically. My knees and back hurt alot and I get tired easily. I can hardly keep up with my 3 year old. At this point I have to lose weight for my health. So I took measurements again so I can really keep track of how I’m doing. They are as follows

 Biceps: 14 in

Bust: 41.5 in

Waist: 37.25 in

Hips: 46.5 in

Thighs: 27.25 in

Calves: 17.25 in

 I know they will shrink in time. I can’t wait to see what the new thinner me looks like!

So I had a moment of clarity and realized that maybe my goals were a little too big and that might have been what is throwing me off my game. I know where I want to be weight wise, but I know I need to focus on smaller goals first. My best friend is getting married on March 7th. I am one of her bridesmaids, therefore I must fit in the dress she so chooses and I won’t be able to do it at this weight.  So I have set myself up with a brand new goal. I have 200 days until then. My new goal is to lose at least 20 lbs. I am going to work towards that goal. When and if I reach it I will set a new small one right up until the day of the wedding. I know that 20 lbs will make a big difference and I will feel so much better about myself and the way I look. I want to dazzle my friend with how commited I am to looking good on her big day. Today is day one for the wedding day dash!

So I try and be faithful to my workout and honestly I have been doing pretty good. What I don’t understand is the my weight is just standing still. For some reason 203 is about my lowest and it fluctuates from there up to like 207. Is it the food I’m eating? I just don’t understand why I’m working out and nothing seems to be happening. I mean I’ve lost a few inches but it seems like the fat must be distributing to other parts of my body instead of disappearing. I just don’t get it!

I am so excited! I got the job! I am now a nanny for some wonderful little kiddos. And I get to be the next thing best to mommy for a brand new(Born July 30th)little boy! My son will finally have a playmate and I will still have time to workout and work on my scrapbooks. I think this is just what I needed. It will save me so much money because I’m not payin a sitter. I will make just as much as if I had a full time job at 6 bucks an hour!!! YAAAAY ME!!!!

I sent an e-mail to a couple very close to where I live. They need a nanny for their 3 year old and new infant. I told them about the structured routine I have with my son and they were very interested. I have a meeting with them on Friday! I can’t wait!!!

Ok so I feel like I’m doing good at keeping on track, not to say my track doesn’t lack some chaos. This last week was a trip!!! Instead of being at home carrying on my normal routine I was out and about. I was away from my prison for 5 whole days!!! Which also means I kinda slacked on my pilates. I did however replace it with other physical activities. Monday I was helping my grandparents move old heavy boxes out of their shed, then Tuesday I was at the zoo all day, and the rest of the week I was working for my dad doing final cleanup on the house he is building. So I got in some good workouts…..at least it felt that way(my legs have been like jello for days and sore sore sore). SO I don’t feel bad about doing my pilates. Ok that said……I’m back to doing pilates on a regular basis. Hopefully I will see more good results. Wish me luck!!

Today is day 4 of my new workout routine. I’m doing pilates and jumping rope. I’ve done 30 minutes of the pilates followed by 100 jumps. It’s harder than I thought. I’ve had to opt out of alot of the pilates abs workout because of a back injury. It’s excruciating. Though I do the upper, lower and total body workouts. The jumping rope is tough afterall that. My muscles are so tired that I barely make 100. I’m working up to 150 this week, then 200 the next week. It’s going to be a challenge but I’m up for it!

I keep reading all these fitness sites say you are supposed to take your measurements instead of weighing in all the time. That way it’s easier to see results. Instead of seeing loss or gain you see inches. Well I guess it’s worth a try. Posting measurements is kinda scary cuz it brings your body into a whole different perspective. Well here they are.

Biceps: 14.5 inches

Bust: 42 inches

Waist: 35 1/4 inches

Hips: 45.5 inches

Thighs: 27 1/4 inches

Calves: 17 inches

I’m still gonna track the weight loss. I’ll track this way too so I can really see progress.

Tomorrow is FRIDAY!!! Have a great weekend everyone!